I'm giving myself permission to have a Do Nothing day. I tried to Do Nothing yesterday, but the house ended up full of kids for most of the day, plus I was having a lot of pain. So as as much as I Did Nothing, it's not very relaxing to Do Nothing when every shift … Continue reading Day off

I did that thing where I felt really able and capable for a while, and overextended myself again. I kind of knew it would happen before it even began, and yet, somehow it just all unraveled that way. Yesterday I was upset bc I'd walked all the way downtown, just to have miscommunicated in some … Continue reading I was bored

I've been awake since 3:30 AM. I fell asleep really early last night. I start training at my volunteer place today. I'm nervous. I don't want to go. All my anxieties and fears are telling me a thousand reasons not to go: too many germs, will get sick, no clean clothes, hair looks terrible, what … Continue reading 5 AM and all is well

I realized a bit ago, that Cat really hasn't had a lot of instruction on how to cat to humans. I say this bc I was quite unwell while I had all the cats and really didn't interact or play much bc I knew they had each other. I made sure they were eating and … Continue reading Cat Kisses

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2PsXT88UeU when my mind is splinteredwhen bad makes more sense than goodwhen my heart says yes and nowhen it feels like my bones are trying to crawl out of my skinwhen the dark tempts me with its eternal depthwhen the sun is too brightwhen the world is too hotwhen i can't tell real from unrealwhen … Continue reading Howling

The sun is being ushered through the window onto my livingroom floor by cool, crisp autumn air... I'm sitting here with my first cup of coffee, contemplating the day. Catching up on my YouTube queue. Thinking about this blog, my IG accounts, my FB pages, my group... It's taking time to pull all the strings … Continue reading gm!